January 30, 2012

Solace

I was left to my own devices for most of this past weekend. 

My usual hiking partners were all doing other things: The guys partook in the 2012 Maui Open disc golf tournament that happened up in Polipoli all weekend [Ben and Zak have been playing for years and it sounds like it was a blast], and Mom’s been nursing a knee injury since the middle of last week. 

The weather was gorgeous, so rather than stay at home, I headed out to meet up with friends on the North shore for a beach day.  By the time we got there, though, it was so windy that I quickly gathered my stuff and headed on the road looking for a solo adventure. 

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The past few days have been pretty rough for me emotionally [pregnancy-related depression?] and I felt a real need to reconnect with the ‘aina.  The West Maui Mountains were crystal clear that day and I could feel the river calling me… so I followed the call into ‘Iao Valley, where I went for a short hike to a secluded spot on the river. 

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‘Iao Valley is especially meaningful for me and just being there lifted my mood and brought me back to my center.  I sat there for a while with my feet dangling in the ice-cold water, and before I knew it, I was sobbing. 

I visualized all my fears and doubtsabout the pregnancy, school and work, and the futureleaving me and drifting down the river with my salty tears.  And I envisioned love and faith filling in the empty spaces left behind. 

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It’s amazing how the Universe supports me when I just seek support and ask for guidance. 

I’m not sure how long I sat there – the sound of rushing water and the simple expansion and contraction of my chest took over and time was no longer relevant – but when I finally opened my eyes and looked around, I realized that I was surrounded by nourishment.  Literally, there were ripe guavas staring me in the face.  

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I had to chuckle because of how ironic it was: I hadn’t even noticed the guavas when I got there, but – yet again – the Universe always provides me with an abundance of exactly what I need, when and where I need it. It was a reminder for me that I am surrounded by love and support, an overflow of resources to have a healthy and happy pregnancy.  I have everything I need to live my best life possible, now and always.  Even on solo adventures, I’m not alone. 

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I took my time walking back, thoroughly delighting in those nutrient-dense guavas and paying close attention to the world around me – which I had mindlessly scuttled through on my way to the river.  

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[A dried up jackson chameleon I found on the path.]

By the time I got back to the car, I felt like a completely new being.  Refreshed and rejuvenated and filled with love.  I’m so grateful to have places where I feel safe and nourished, and where I can go when I’m feeling overwhelmed with life.  I’m sure it’s wonderful for the baby, too. 

Where do you find solace?  What do you do when you’re feeling overwhelmed? 


Aloha Pumehana.
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January 26, 2012

Healthy + Hapai–17 Weeks

Baby

“Your baby’s skeleton is changing from soft cartilage to bone, and the umbilical cord — her lifeline to the placenta — is growing stronger and thicker. Your baby weighs 5 ounces now… and she’s around 5 inches long from head to bottom. She can move her joints, and her sweat glands are starting to develop.” (Source

The baby’s growing and getting stronger by the day, and I can definitely feel it.  Last week they said to expect a growth spurt, but I had no idea how quickly it would all happen!  I’ve been starting to feel the tiniest of sensations coming from within me now… like little butterflies… and it makes me so happy to know that I’ve always got a sweet little sidekick. Smile

Momma

Bump! Bump! Bump! Did you ever ride a wump? We have a wump with just one hump. But, we know a man called Mr. Gump. Mr Gump has a seven hump Wump…” –Dr. Seuss. [I had to.]

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[Week 9 vs. Week 17]

It’s pretty amazing to see the growth when I look at these shots side by side!  On a daily basis I don’t feel like I’m changing much, but it’s obvious that there’s some serious expansion going on.  When I tell my clients or students how far along I am, everyone seems to think I’m measuring small, but personally I feel like my belly has become obvious now.  I’ve actually become obsessed with touching it – I enjoy the curvature so much more than I ever expected. 

Oh, and speaking of growth: I managed to gain about a pound and a half in just this past week!  Holy moly, talk about a growth spurt!  I’m not too worried about it since that only puts me up about 3 lbs. since conception and I’m sure the baby needs it, but it was pretty surprising nonetheless [that’s not true… I’ve been ravenous this past week]. 

I think back to how nauseous and fatigued I was feeling in that 9 week photo and think thank goodness that lifted, although this week the fatigue has definitely made a comeback.  Maybe it’s due to the vog, but I’m feeling a serious lull in energy.  

Aside from that:

Strange new symptoms: a rash on my ring finger has made wearing my wedding rings painful [a few of my friends have told me they experienced the same while pregnant].  I’ll have to figure out what to do about that now…

Maternity purchases: I discovered the one-wall maternity section of our Old Navy this week and bought a pair of black work pants and two layering shirts!

The name game: Ben and I have been thinking more about the qualities we want to highlight in our child… but I honestly don’t feel like I know enough about this little baby to give him/her a name [names are so permanent!].  I’ve started to realize that there are tons of girl names I’m interested in but boy names have been more difficult for me [maybe that’s a sign?].

Cravings: frozen yogurt, fortune cookies, blueberries [last week I ate three half-pints within a 24 hour period], and cooked veggies!

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Aversions: I still can’t do butternut squash.  Other than that, put it in front of me and it’ll get devoured. Winking smile

Sleep/Dreams: For a while my dreams were CRAZY and involved all kinds of people and places, but lately sleep has become difficult for me and I wake up feeling less rested.  I’m a back-sleeper and am not used to sleeping on my side, so I think I’m still getting used to the snoogle.  I really like it for naps, but sleeping with it overnight is hard because every movement I make requires effort and wakes me up.   

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Now that school and work are back in full swing, Ben’s and I are trying to make the most of our precious time together.  We still make time for walks, lounging, and weekend adventures, but some days we’ll go until about 10pm without seeing each other all day. 

Ben has always been really good at offering balance.  As always, he makes sure I’m eating well, sleeping well, and listening to my body.  He’s so open and actually just learned a few lomi lomi pregnancy massage moves that he’ll be able to do for me throughout the pregnancy [!!!].  He’s also surrounded by women at the elementary school he works at, and now that they all know we’re expecting, they’ve been passing along their invaluable advice and methods.

Ben’s randoms for this week:

Cravings: beer, dried marlin, spicy food.

What I do while Haley gets prenatal massages: babysit other hapai women’s children, walk, read, and play on my cell phone. 

Is it a boy/girl?  I have no idea, but if I had to choose one right now, I’d probably say girl. 

Resource acquired this week: Hypnobirthing CDs from a fellow teacher [!!!]

Next book to read: The Bradley Method of Natural Childbirth [Husband-Coached Childbirth].

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Overall, this week I’m most excited to finally feel like I’m showing.
  I feel like I’ll just continue to grow exponentially from here on out, and I couldn’t be happier about it! Smile

Aloha Pumehana. Whether you’re here to find balance, wholesome recipes or inspiration, I hope you enjoy the posts.  Please subscribe to Green Plate Dinners to receive automatic updates and be the first to read new posts for free!

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