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February 27, 2012

Random Monday

Happy Monday! 

I usually wake up with some idea of what I feel like blogging about.  Sometimes I try to keep themes, and sometimes I just go with what I’m feeling [one of the joys of having my own little creative space online is that I get to post whatever I want!].  But this morning, I have way too much energy and thus couldn’t decide what to write about, so I decided a random post was necessary. 

First off, I didn’t wake up with all this energy [in fact Ben is probably wondering whether I have multiple personalities considering he left a groggy and grouchy Haley at 7am].  I was craving chocolate this morning, and since I teach my Turbo class at 8am, I decided to have a couple pieces before leaving the house this morning.


People have differing views on whether hapai women should eat chocolate [due to caffeine content], but I believe in moderation, intuition, and keeping Momma happy. Winking smile  We usually don’t keep anything under 80% dark chocolate in the house, and I haven’t had any in a while.  I literally had two pieces of the stuff and felt so much energy I didn’t know what to do with myself.  Thank goodness I could put all that energy to use with my kickboxing class!  But I’m still feeling energized like crazy, so I must still be riding the caffeine wave…

Ben finally got his second pair of Vibram FiveFingers this past weekend [his first pair was on it’s way out and he wanted something specifically for running]! 


[He decided on the Komodo Sport and loves them!]

Watching him come back from a great run with a healthy glow makes me miss running.  He’s all signed up for the Valley to the Sea Half Marathon on March 24th, which means he’ll have his second half under his belt in less than a month!  I’m thinking I may just sign up to walk the 5 or 10K, but either way, I’ll be there cheering for him! 

I’ve been way more emotional than I’d like to admit over the past week or so.  I’ve been feeling lost with life, overly pessimistic about everything, wanting nothing to do with anyone other than Ben, and having no motivation for anything other than laying in bed and watching shows like this one on Netflix:


[Ben + I were late to catch on and are currently watching Season 5]

I keep telling myself to be patient with the process, but it’s difficult nowadays to tell which emotions are simply pregnancy hormones and which are real

I have far too many photos in my camera right now.  A few of my seriously random faves:


Candid unprepared healthy+hapai update shots.  Haha… I’m pretty sure I was griping about the stretching sensations happening. 


Tons of food-that-didn’t-work-out or I-haven’t-had-the-time-to-post recipe shots.  Those are sugar+wheat-free tahini cookies on the left, and [too] crispy french toast – gone wrong. 


Random adventure to the Melting Pot just for dessert [I thought I was craving it, but Ben and I got sick from all the sugar].  Needless to say, we weren’t such big fans. 


And finally, photos from Ben + Zak’s hike in the crater yesterday [these aren’t really mine since I wasn’t there, but I’m living vicariously]. 

Alright, I’d say that’s enough randomness for one day.  I’m off to get some Mom-time in – we’re gonna go run some errands – and then write a paper. 

I leave you with a thought:

“Every day is a new opportunity. You can build on yesterday’s success or put its failures behind and start over again.” –Bob Feller.

Make today count [even if that means laying in bed and watching How I Met Your Mother]Have a beautiful Monday! 

Aloha Pumehana. Whether you’re here to find balance, wholesome recipes or inspiration, I hope you enjoy the posts.  Please subscribe to Green Plate Dinners to receive automatic updates and be the first to read new posts for free!

January 30, 2012


I was left to my own devices for most of this past weekend. 

My usual hiking partners were all doing other things: The guys partook in the 2012 Maui Open disc golf tournament that happened up in Polipoli all weekend [Ben and Zak have been playing for years and it sounds like it was a blast], and Mom’s been nursing a knee injury since the middle of last week. 

The weather was gorgeous, so rather than stay at home, I headed out to meet up with friends on the North shore for a beach day.  By the time we got there, though, it was so windy that I quickly gathered my stuff and headed on the road looking for a solo adventure. 


The past few days have been pretty rough for me emotionally [pregnancy-related depression?] and I felt a real need to reconnect with the ‘aina.  The West Maui Mountains were crystal clear that day and I could feel the river calling me… so I followed the call into ‘Iao Valley, where I went for a short hike to a secluded spot on the river. 


‘Iao Valley is especially meaningful for me and just being there lifted my mood and brought me back to my center.  I sat there for a while with my feet dangling in the ice-cold water, and before I knew it, I was sobbing. 

I visualized all my fears and doubtsabout the pregnancy, school and work, and the futureleaving me and drifting down the river with my salty tears.  And I envisioned love and faith filling in the empty spaces left behind. 


It’s amazing how the Universe supports me when I just seek support and ask for guidance. 

I’m not sure how long I sat there – the sound of rushing water and the simple expansion and contraction of my chest took over and time was no longer relevant – but when I finally opened my eyes and looked around, I realized that I was surrounded by nourishment.  Literally, there were ripe guavas staring me in the face.  


I had to chuckle because of how ironic it was: I hadn’t even noticed the guavas when I got there, but – yet again – the Universe always provides me with an abundance of exactly what I need, when and where I need it. It was a reminder for me that I am surrounded by love and support, an overflow of resources to have a healthy and happy pregnancy.  I have everything I need to live my best life possible, now and always.  Even on solo adventures, I’m not alone. 


I took my time walking back, thoroughly delighting in those nutrient-dense guavas and paying close attention to the world around me – which I had mindlessly scuttled through on my way to the river.  


[A dried up jackson chameleon I found on the path.]

By the time I got back to the car, I felt like a completely new being.  Refreshed and rejuvenated and filled with love.  I’m so grateful to have places where I feel safe and nourished, and where I can go when I’m feeling overwhelmed with life.  I’m sure it’s wonderful for the baby, too. 

Where do you find solace?  What do you do when you’re feeling overwhelmed? 

Aloha Pumehana.
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